Brightest smile, Huge love & broken heart.

The real-truth that is exist in this world, I say.

"These kind of people, were still exist." 

Holla my chiikaass!

 (Tulisan kali ini, tak panjang sangat pun. kot?) ehhhh

 "Selamat datang untuk sesiapa yang baru sahaja menjengah ke blog Laila dan WELCOME BACK kepada yang pernah datang dan kembali semula." 

    Terima kasih, terima kasih sangat-sangat sebab sudi menjengah dan sudi kembali. Terima kasih sebab sudi ada dengan saya sampai sekarang dari tahun 2018 (nak dekat 4 tahun dah.) 

    Terima kasih sebab..., rajin baca apa yang saya tulis. Yelah awak sanggup baca semuuuuaaaa yang saya bebelkan banyak-banyak dekat sini. Terima kasih dan maaf sebab saya SANGAT jarang update. Maaf, sebab saya dah tak macam dulu-dulu. Maaf, sebab saya berubah. 

"I'm sorry if you can't ever met your expectation in me. because you never will." 

    (My current list: 'Sad Song') : Bila dengar lagu ni, saya teringat manusia2 yang selalu ada dengan saya. Sahabat2 saya. haih.., tiba2 vibes sedih datang. Inilah masalah saya ni sekarang. fuhhh. 

       Disebabkan dah lama saya tak menulis, kan. Saya jadi tak tahu nak tulis apa as mukaddimah. Taip, padam. Taip semula dan padam lagi. Saya tak tahu nak susun ayat macam mana. 

Sejujurnya. ahahahah. well, I lost my touch.*nanges jap.

    So.., how's your day? how are you today? 

Well, I hope you're doing very good and fine. 

Awak baca tak tajuk entri saya? (Tak apa, tak payah scroll. Biar saya taip semula. Tak susah pun, tak apa. eh?) 

Brightest smile, Huge love & broken heart.

So yeah.

Saya nak cerita ni. Dekat dunia ni kan, raaaaaaaamai sangat orang yang saya jumpa. Yang sangat ber- effort untuk 'pelangi'kan hari orang lain. Raaaaaamai sangat yang nak jadi sunshine to someone's life. Raaaaaaamai sangat yang nak kongsi 'the warm' so that everyone could feel the comfortable as they should feel. 

   Percayalah, dalam dunia ini. Memang ada manusia2 yang begini. 

    Dia suuuuka bahagiakan orang lain. They have that brightest smile and a huge love. They're always giving a love even sometimes they didn't receive any in return. And more, they've been broken by the peoples that they wanted to call 'home'. But still, They're really have that kind and pure soul whom never give up in giving love to others. The same soul whom always put on their brightest smile. The same soul whom always bringing happiness and left their sparks after entering one's room so that the room will never be so dark. 

    Percaya tak? 

    Let me tell you a secret, sayang.  

    That soul. That heart. That kind of peoples which I'm talking about, was really exist. And maybe it is you. Or your friends. Or the peoples around you. In case you're the person which I'm talking about (typing, LOL). 

    Well, that is sooo dear of you, darling. You've been torns apart. You've been sufferes such thing for a long time. Yet you still trying your best to be kind. You've got the tenderness, sayang. I'm really speechless. 

    How is that you can shows your strength and tenderness from that fragile body? I can't believe it but that's the truth and real sarcasm of this world. Well, the beautiful sarcasm part of life, I guess. kan? it is beautiful when you can makes the pain that hurts you so bad seems aluring and tempting. 

    Intoxicating stated. 

    Memang wujud manusia yang sudah banyak kali patah dan pecah, tetapi masih berusaha menyebarkan kasih sayang dan masih percaya kepada 'harapan'. 

     Pelik tak? 

    Orang yang sudah banyak kali patah, tetapi masih bertahan untuk kekal spread the love to everyone. 

    why?

Because they don't want the people around them..., suffered the same things as they felt before.

    Sebab mereta tahu macam mana sakitnya untuk hadap perasaan itu, SENDIRI. 

    So that they've decided to embrace others with the warm of them. 

    Jadi tolonglah, wahai kawan. Tolong hargai mereka yang berusaha untuk menceriakan hari2 awak. Tolong jangan berhenti berharap dan jadilah sunshine untuk orang lain juga. I know it's hurt. But that doesn't mean for you to underestimated others matter.

Kerana kita semua ada worst past. Cuma kebanyakan kita lebih suka menyimpan untuk dijadikan cerita malam-malam sebelum tidur untuk diri sendiri. For us to say to ourselves, 

"You are doing great today. You're always doing good and fine." 

For us to loves ourselves the most. For us to accepting every flaws in ourselves. For us to appreciating every wound that go deepest in our soul and heart; telling ourselves that 'you are so strong and lovable.' 

Simpan semua sakit sendiri, jika masih mampu bertahan. 

Kalau nak meluah, carilah manusia yang paling LAYAK. 

Dan jangan lupa, sebuah kewujudan yang paling agung dan tak akan cacat, 

Tuhan. 

Kepada orang yang sedang berada dalan sakit 'itu'.  Take your time, it's okay.

    It's alright, you are not alone. We're all trying so hard to survive together, remember? It's okay, life turns you upside down. But you will be okay even your life is still not. You will move forward, don't you? So work harder, make your fears bow to you. 

    It's okay to have a fight on yourself. It's okay to always deal with those unpredictable thoughts on your mind. It's okay for always have to make a deal with the pain that hurts you so bad. You will heals. Healing may not disappeared your wound. But when you understand, you will try to accepting the flaws in you. You will see the beautiful wound that has made from the damages before.

    You maybe torn a part. The broken you've been feeling may turn you into the pieces. But.., believe me. You're the most beautiful pieces that have ever exist in my life. The most precious chapter that ever appears in your life. 

    Ya know, as for me..., it's okay to have a bad past and worst memories. Kerana disebabkan ia, you're being the most beautiful pieces and the most precious treasure. Keep being kind and love and strong. One day, Allah akan temukan seseorang untuk lihat the strength  and the beauty side of you. As for now, you must notices it by yourself. Do not please others. Even your family members don't know your pain. Do not please anyone else, sayang. 

    Give loves to others, but do not forget yourself. Okay? Awak ada Allah, awak pun ada saya. Saya sayang awak! mwach! ehehek*Ketawa gedik. 

"Hey, you did a very good job today! I believe in you and I'm so proud of you!" 

You can do this, don't you? 

Stay pwettey, stay cute and don't forget be nice to each other. Okay?

I love you. 

Gudnite. Okay jom sambung makan eskwem steobewiiiiii! 

"May your days become bright, and your nights become quite, sayang."- Lailawrites.